ALBEDO EFFECT
Finalist for the 2024 Montreal International Poetry Prize
A THEORY OF ABSENCE​​​​​​​
The bent gardener and the garden, two congruent arcs
     curve with date-palm tension – one always shielding the small
of our backs, exchanging water. Can there be growth
     without visitation, where gaps in home stories shed? 
Morning prayers linger in Arab neighbourhood, curious
     dreams from childhood. You hid depression in black dress
& foreign niqābs, but home undressed you without
     sound or silence, only a thin white noise. We had grown
accustomed to it all: set static, cicadas droning daily, dawn chants.
     Sorrow was just another vibration to the body.
I drew a picture of the twin towers – this startled you. We were
     on the wrong side of the oceans & dad couldn’t
make it back in time for this reason so I assume he said
     goodbye over the telephone but never ask; grief channelled
through machine cedes rhythm. You fold a sheet 
     in half gently & stick a pencil through to demonstrate. 
Two halves meet in the middle, two blood bodies in one place, 
stranded on surface skin. If only we could decypher wormholes
I would have stayed among the short shadows & sand
     to lengthen the words of care we harvested.
Some days I would nakedly play in the sunstroked
     garden, I remember this much, while you
carried branches of red acacia in & out of the house
     with lightened face. It rained once a year – you spent it smiling.
I’ve been asked Do you only write about your mother? 
     That’s inaccurate. I only write about absence & sometimes 
when the day splits I sit with you on the country’s bare back 
     & watch the children play with air.

First published in CV2 vol. 46 no. 2 (2023)
L'Aube
Everyone is in anguish about the trees.
The mountain pine beetle and western gall rust,
a deadly one-two punch, keeps gaining ground and,
of course, the warming winters aren’t helping.
I go through a few late-night Google benders
learning as much as I can about the threats:
the latest projections, accounted losses, potential
counter-measures. I call my sister—we discuss
summer plans and helping our parents move homes
to be closer to family, except me, who decided
he belonged on the coast—no, not the near one.
There’s increasing evidence about mycorrhizal
networks transferring information from one plant
to another, telephone lines for trees, if you will,
but some biologists are skeptical. Attends, I say,
j’vais trouver le mot en français.  I picture her
spinning in her chair with a child folded into chest
chest and the flash is a future is a certainty
that she would be a good mother, then find the word
hooked to my stomach on a line leading east.
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First published in Polyphony: Encore Poetry Project Anthology (2023)
CARAPACE
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A boy was pulled from the fishnets today
alongside the trout. Small. Rigid. Skin opaled, dusk
coloured. Blind marks of violence. Abnormal catch.
The body was displayed facedown and naked
on the summer sand while the men arranged
the fish into groupings depending on their size,
discarding the odd bycatches. Crabs, catfish, even a sizeable
hammerhead were thrown back into the bullied sea.
Vessels docked, men and women circled the body.
A later autopsy discovered kitchen knife cuts
beneath the jawline on each side. Gills. Everything
below the waist was gone, presumably eaten, but the salt
had mended the ripped flesh over time;
when first observed, it was as if the boy were born without legs.
Rumours spread like algae in the seaside town. One
claimed his penis had been severed and found on a cliff
that overlooked the rocky bay. He had cut his long
hair and mailed strands to every neighbouring girl
with a note asking they be worn daily. A plea,
some figured. He was found wearing his mother’s clothes.
At the burial, local fishermen brought starfish
casting them into the ground above the casket.
An absent father & brother, both busy at the height of
the fishing season.
There were no eulogies, no obituary in the paper. Only
a wanted ad: Pair of legs, sex attached. Reward offered.
The news saddened me at first. A kid at school.
Often dreamt of mermaids.


First published in yolk issue 2.2 (2022)
THE LOBSTER
Shortlisted for the Malahat Review Long Poem Prize (2023)
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